Can't even remember I long I have been in this program until someone reminded me. I was anxious before why I can't be done with this, why this isn't good enough? self satisfaction... Wanted to achieve the goal. The goal should be an arbitrary so I could never get there so I won't stop. but just resting. Today my daughter finished her homework for the first time own her own. I was so amazed and moved. I could not forget that moment must be my feeling lasting long not my mood. I feel it is still inside of me, that joy and realization of how blessed I am not from the kids but me. I see what I should be really thankful for. I feel what I need to hold on to. I didn't believe it could work. everyone said she is too slow and I was the only person who saw how talented she is. How sweet she is. How amazing she is. I feel that and she has no idea what I feel because of her. It is just for me. That is right. My life is my life no one else's. I need to live health and strong so I can experience many of these moments like today.